Redwolf's Journal (continued)

Part two of... maybe just two. Personal stuff and the best warning I can give is "don't look if you don't want to know." Writing on weighty issues has always been easier for me than talking about them. Still, even in text, some things are difficult to put forth. Sex is one of them. Oh sure, I have characters that throw the topic around like it's nothing, but that hardly counts. So why is this such a touch topic for me? I'm not entirely sure. Maybe all that moving as a kid kept me from developing bonds with friends at the time others are talking about such things. Maybe it's just *me*. Either way, I've never really discussed it. Sure, there were magazines I saw at an age that would be frowned on. Yes, my parents bought me a book one year, and there was "sex ed" in school. For all that, I'm just not comfortable with the topic. Throw in the vast amounts of information of all sorts on the internet, and I'm a warped little bundle of ...

Well... I'd mentioned being introspective lately. I guess I'll put forth some of that. Mind you, I'm setting this friends-only (or trying), but if you think it's possible I could say something that would qualify as TMI, you may want to pass on this... When did I deviate from social norm? I don't even know. My parents divorced and I moved around a lot with my mother during my pre-teen years. That probably didn't help. When you don't tend to spend more than two years in any given place, it's hard to develop large circles of friends or deep bonds with anyone. And romantic relationships? Pfft. Only in novel-inspired imagination, if that. I guess I was 14 when I put my foot down. It strikes me as odd now that *I* made the decision to live with my dad and stepmom, but I was rather sick of moving and Grand Forks, North Dakota wasn't my idea of paradise. Finally, in Durango, I had a place to call "home." Even settled in one place, though, ...

Too much work and too much reflection... or something. Work summed up: Upgrade issues have settled, though we're still going back and forth on some points, trying to get everything working as it should. David's on vacation this week, leaving me at the sole IT person here. Last night was the first time since Thursday that I haven't been called to help with something. I've been charged with devising and presenting a plan to back up our network data. Honestly, I'm less than thrilled about that responsibility. I really don't feel I get paid enough to handle daily tasks, much less tackle something like that. Still, I'll do it. Everything else can be described as "okay," I suppose. There's really nothing at home that I can complain about. Having a couple weekends in a row by myself, though, left me more introspective than usual. I can't say I realized anything new, but I consolidated several things I knew and admitted the whole mess of it t...

60+ hour week? Check. Missing out on a movie? Check. Lack of sleep during the weekend? Check. Allergies easing up, but still making sleep less than sound? Check. Being left locally 'in charge' of troubleshooting upgrade issues for the day? Check. Constant stream of things to work on? Check. Heated interaction just shy of a shouting match with a coworker? Check. Yeah, it's been a heck of a day. One of a series, really. But I'm holding up fairly well, I guess. Could be better. Could be worse.

Bleh. On the up side, the day is actually progressing well. A lingering issue at work shows signs that it may have been fixed, and the little things that have come up thusfar proved to be solvable. On the down side, I'm still feeling pretty down today. Allergies are just enough to be uncomfortable. I'm bothered more about the generalities of my life than usual. My mindset just isn't allowing me to enjoy what will probably be an easy and relaxed day. So it goes. *shrug*

Strange night. I can't even begin to describe it. ... No, that's not right. I just won't get into the details here. Left me with a lot to think about, and my mood hasn't been ruined. Even sitting in on a MUCK meeting. That's pretty astounding right there. Now, this is... almost a good night. But very, very odd.

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