Redwolf's Journal (continued)

Hmm... Guess I'll stick with a minor update rather than posting something I wrote. It's a tad too depressing at present. Had no game Saturday. Amusingly, this all went right around me. Some of the players decided since one was gone, we wouldn't be playing. This has been a standard truth in our games, but I think we have enough players we can go on without one more of the time now. I was just as happy to have the day 'off.' It was probably a good thing in the long run. Instead, there was much talking and dinner out. Pleasant, all-in-all. Last night revolved largely around meeting up with an old friend. I had qualms at first, but it really was good to see her again... even if she pointed out I'm less fun these days. Heh. Like I needed that said. She also gifted us with promo cards for a Cyberpunk CCG friends of hers in Denver have put together. Throughout the weekend, I've been getting online later than usual and I've had no energy while there. It&

I'm tired of being what you want me to be Feeling so faithless, lost under the surface I don't know what you're expecting of me Put under the pressure, of walking in your shoes (Caught in the undertow, just caught in the undertow) Every step that I take is another mistake to you (Caught in the undertow, just caught in the undertow) [Chorus:] I've become so numb I can't feel you there Become so tired, so much more aware I'm becoming this, all I want to do Is be more like me and be less like you Can't you see that you're smothering me? Holding too tightly, afraid to lose control 'Cause everything that you thought I would be Has fallen apart, right in front of you (Caught in the undertow, just caught in the undertow) Every step that I take is another mistake to you (Caught in the undertow, just caught in the undertow) An' every second I waste is more than I can take [Chorus:] I've become so numb I can't feel you the

Yeah, I have to agree with this assessment of Return of the King: http://www.pvponline.com/archive.php3?archive=20031217 Good movie. Great end of the trilogy. It's long, but there really isn't much in the way of slow parts. The only real sign there was that hours were rolling by was the discomfort of sitting in place for an extended period of time. The theater was packed and, sadly, there was someone in the area who really should have showered before joining the rest of us. But I certainly can't blame the movie for that. We opened presents Saturday among the gaming group. Early presents like that feel awkward to me, but it was nice to be able to open them with friends and say "thank you" directly. The game went well too. Progress was made, no battles were fought (which is a success in this case), and the PCs are officially third level now. Yay. And we'll be missing at least one player next weekend. Usually that means no game, but we have enough players

Oy. Well, we had a Christmas office party of sorts yesterday complete with 'Santa' and presents. That was odd. It's the first time I can recall such. Usually our Christmas parties are months down the line at a restaurant and pretty much just meeting and eating. Instead, this was near the end of the workday and I walked away with a picture frame with a bow on it. What am I going to do with a 4x6 picture frame? Ah well, guess I can't complain. Today we're having a departmental Christmas lunch. Then, depending on how the day goes, I may be dropping by yet another Christmas party after work. It's all just a little insane. And it looks like I'll probably be driving over to visit my folks on Christmas Day. It isn't likely to be first thing in the morning (as I'm not a morning person) and I won't stay the night (since I work the following day), but somewhere in that space I get to have my dose of 'family time.' *chuckle* That doesn't f

It's almost that time, and I feel a little uncomfortable about it. It isn't the presents. Usually, I'm scrambling a bit, but I feel the presents are under control this time around. I have... two to buy yet, I guess. Both are things I can get locally, will deliver locally, and are already decided on. No real stress there. No, it's a matter of holiday tradition, or lack thereof. I am accustomed to getting up on Christmas morning at home with my parents and doing the whole opening-of-presents thing. Christmas Eve isn't usually anything too special, though our Christmas Day meal may involve some treats that are nicer than normal. This time, my 'home' is not my parents' home. My roommate usually spends Christmas Eve with family and presents. I suppose I could do that, but it doesn't exactly feel right, and I'd rather not drive to Cortez after work on the night before Christmas. I feel like I should wake up at home on the morning of Christmas an

It feels like the weekend was very long, just not in a good way. Friday night I noticed my computer acting a bit odd in IE/OE. It would lock up (to the point of the cursor not moving with the mouse) at seemingly random moments when these programs were open. I didn't notice it at any other time, but I didn't go checking every program I could, either. Saturday morning, it just plain didn't work. On bootup it would get to the Win XP loading screen, then restart. For a few tries, it would offer me the option of booting into safe mode every other restart. Then it even stopped doing that. I couldn't get into it too seriously due to a noon gathering for RP. That night, I fiddled and fussed for quite a while. I couldn't seem to repair Windows, so I ended up doing a new install. Gee, multi-booting to Win XP that works or Win XP that doesn't. Such options. I also had to reinstall pretty much everything. All the programs and drivers were there, but the new Windows inst

No enthusiasm. No drive. No energy. Ugh. I can't blame the weather, as it's sunny today. Actually... I can't blame much of anything. I took Friday off, so I should be more rested this week than usual. I started DMing again Saturday (in a game that proves, once again, PCs will not go in whichever direction you may plan if they're given any freedom), so I should have something to think about to keep me occupied. Instead I find myself sitting at work during a fairly quiet morning with no focus in my thoughts and no desire to do anything. Meh. The mood's been lingering since Sunday, actually. *sigh* It'll pass eventually.