Ignorance is Bliss
I think too much.
Okay, that has likely saved me from a lot of grief over the course of my life, but it also holds me back from experienced that could be positive. On a broad scale, it's kept me from things like marriage and career ambition. On a smaller scale, it keeps me away from things like roleplaying scenes that I would find disappointing (which happens to mean missing out on a lot, which is disappointing in a different way). Ugh.
In small, recent example, I steered myself away from a plot that seemed pitched as "epic adventure to retrieve legendary figure from mountain of mythical importance!" My brain looked at the factors involved and decided this adventure would likely resolve in a way that would feel rushed and unsatisfying in spite of seemingly major threat along the way. It was also involving people who rub me the wrong way. This all seemed like a recipe for not-a-fun-time, so I sat it out.
In the end, it has taken those involved all of a "week and two days" in IC time and while I didn't follow the goings on super closely, it seemed like the major threat(s) resolved in disappointing fashion and... yeah, I feel like my earlier assessment was probably accurate.
Yet I still feel kind of bummed about missing out, too.
Would it have been better to say "hell with it" and go anyway? It's hard to say for certain, though I suspect the net unpleasantness would have outweighed the feeling of being involved, so I probably "came out ahead?"
But overall, it just feels like it was a lose-lose situation to begin with. Feh.
Okay, that has likely saved me from a lot of grief over the course of my life, but it also holds me back from experienced that could be positive. On a broad scale, it's kept me from things like marriage and career ambition. On a smaller scale, it keeps me away from things like roleplaying scenes that I would find disappointing (which happens to mean missing out on a lot, which is disappointing in a different way). Ugh.
In small, recent example, I steered myself away from a plot that seemed pitched as "epic adventure to retrieve legendary figure from mountain of mythical importance!" My brain looked at the factors involved and decided this adventure would likely resolve in a way that would feel rushed and unsatisfying in spite of seemingly major threat along the way. It was also involving people who rub me the wrong way. This all seemed like a recipe for not-a-fun-time, so I sat it out.
In the end, it has taken those involved all of a "week and two days" in IC time and while I didn't follow the goings on super closely, it seemed like the major threat(s) resolved in disappointing fashion and... yeah, I feel like my earlier assessment was probably accurate.
Yet I still feel kind of bummed about missing out, too.
Would it have been better to say "hell with it" and go anyway? It's hard to say for certain, though I suspect the net unpleasantness would have outweighed the feeling of being involved, so I probably "came out ahead?"
But overall, it just feels like it was a lose-lose situation to begin with. Feh.
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