RL Rage

I started off the day, sadly carried over from yesterday, feeling a bit depressed. Manageable, but annoying unmotivated.

I didn't give much thought to the person in my other parking spot at home, though that is something of a pet peeve of mine. And swerving as a deer walked into the road on the way to work wasn't too upsetting, as it's a deer. That's sort of what they do. By the time someone decided to pull his car out from the middle of three in a merging lane over out in front of me, forcing me to slam on my breaks to not plow into him... yeah, that's the point where my depression transformed into rage.

And I've been pissy and frustrated since.

Work presents no particular shortage of little stupid shit that I normally just try not to dwell on, but irritate me in moods like this:
- I could go into the "change this... oh wait, change that back" stuff that comes up as a matter of routine.
- Or the remote ad project that was theoretically canceled months ago, but we're still dragging out support for a couple people on. It would be so much better to either get it done right or drop it completely rather than this bullshit.
- Or the server that my supervisor/co-tech should have put into service a year or two ago to run systems I'm totally unfamiliar with that's still sitting untouched.
- Or the call for one of us to go to Cortez tomorrow in order to do stuff... but after a week, no one has told us specifically what needs to be done (after repeated asking), so we have no idea what we'll actually need to do.
- Or the sudden vacating of our Bayfield off, plans made to support a home office, plans killed because (in spite of assurances) our ISP can't get internet to that house, talk about getting another office downtown there. Just one more fucking mess with no clear direction.
- Or he way the company seems to like to put off paying as much as possible, leading to late charges on invoices we have to sign off on. Heck, the cable has gone out a couple times due to non-payment.
- Multiple projects that have fallen by the wayside simply because no one will respond when I present questions that need answers, like user cleanup and email retention setup.

I largely view my job as enabling others to do their jobs. When people, by action or inaction, impede that, it feels like a frustrating insult to both me and the people who might rely on me. And some days I'm just sick of the stupidity, lack of focus, and waffling that goes on. Most of the time, it's just a minor annoyance, but when I'm already raging... grrr...

And that's just work. I mean, there's also the need to buy a new stove, as the one I've been putting off replacing has had another coil fail and is making me think it's a fire hazard. That, in turn, gives me a good bit of cleaning that needs to be done in the kitchen. That's almost as daunting in itself.

I just don't have the tolerance for the little things right now...