Tears

Ten years ago, I would have said it was difficult for me to cry. I had to be pretty damn upset and overwrought to shed tears over anything. I distinctly remember that, and wondering if I was just more emotionally distant than the average person.

These days, while I don't really break down and weep with any more regularity, tears are easy. I find myself hitting a sentimental passage in a book, or a scene in a movie, and I tear right up. The moment when the heroes are on the ropes and fighting back to victory seems to get me every time - and that's pretty much standard fare in the action/sci-fi/fantasy movies I see on the big screen these days. As predictable and cliche as those scenes are, I just can't avoid it. So I watch/read through bleary eyes, wiping tears from my cheeks. And when this happens, I can't help but feel a little bit broken inside somehow. No matter what I may tell myself, I feel like this is not how (or at least how strongly) I should be reacting...

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  1. tashiroJanuary 11, 2014 at 7:15 PM

    With me it is the loss of a close family member. Usually parent / child pairings. There are some things involving fathers as well that will get to me, as seen in Fresh Prince, when Wil's upset because his father walked out on him (again).

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  2. marinredwolfJanuary 12, 2014 at 9:47 AM

    Ah, but is that because you sympathize and it feels natural, or does it feel out of nowhere?

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  3. tashiroJanuary 12, 2014 at 10:46 AM

    In a number of cases, it seems to come out of nowhere. I mean, with Thor: The Dark World - Thor loses (spoiler), and it was upsetting, but when he loses (spoiler) later, I lost it. And the thing is, I have nothing to relate to it - even if, rationally, I don't think I should be crying, I did. With Fresh Prince, it was empathy, I think. The episode where Wil get shot, and he demands that Carlton give him the gun his cousin just bought hurt. With the loss of his father, that hurt even more. The former - I have no idea why. The latter, I can relate on some level.

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