Antidepressant: The Early Days
Four days of taking medication like this is far too early to make any sweeping conclusions. It's difficult enough to sort through subtle (key word for the most part) changes in emotions and biological processes asking "is this real or imagined?" and then figuring out "has this actually changed?" I'm skeptical by nature, so I'm really wary of stating any claims as truth without more evidence.
But keeps asking me how I'm feeling, and I've been dancing around that a bit due to all of the above. So here's a bit more of an answer at this early stage.
This seems promising and I'm cautiously optimistic.
On the "side effect" end of things, I did have some random, mild headaches the first day. Hunger feels a little different, perhaps muted, but that hasn't seriously impacted my eating habits. It seems a little bit harder to get to sleep and stay asleep than before.
On the up side, I feel a bit more energetic, having gone for a short hike yesterday and observed myself bouncing my heels at my desk a few times. I do feel like my baseline mood has increased - which is the most desired outcome and perhaps the most difficult to describe. It's subtle, but it's not. I have not gone to "bright and chipper extrovert" by any means, but when I try to mentally compare to a week ago, I feel almost euphoric at the contrast. Life hasn't miraculously become great, but it's become a little better - and that is pretty damn awesome.
Will things remain this way going forward? Will the sleep disruption be tolerable or go away? I really don't know. But I'll continue to observe and make notes to myself of anything that seems noteworthy and we'll just see where it goes. So far, so good.
But keeps asking me how I'm feeling, and I've been dancing around that a bit due to all of the above. So here's a bit more of an answer at this early stage.
This seems promising and I'm cautiously optimistic.
On the "side effect" end of things, I did have some random, mild headaches the first day. Hunger feels a little different, perhaps muted, but that hasn't seriously impacted my eating habits. It seems a little bit harder to get to sleep and stay asleep than before.
On the up side, I feel a bit more energetic, having gone for a short hike yesterday and observed myself bouncing my heels at my desk a few times. I do feel like my baseline mood has increased - which is the most desired outcome and perhaps the most difficult to describe. It's subtle, but it's not. I have not gone to "bright and chipper extrovert" by any means, but when I try to mentally compare to a week ago, I feel almost euphoric at the contrast. Life hasn't miraculously become great, but it's become a little better - and that is pretty damn awesome.
Will things remain this way going forward? Will the sleep disruption be tolerable or go away? I really don't know. But I'll continue to observe and make notes to myself of anything that seems noteworthy and we'll just see where it goes. So far, so good.
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