Vacation-related Thoughts

I don't want to up and cancel. I don't want to be the stick in the mud. I... don't want to always be the "sensible and cautious" one.

But fuck.

I'm having a lot of trouble seeing the hassle and expense of car or plane being worthwhile for what would essentially be a weekend visiting distant friends. And while train travel gets bonus points for novelty, the only way it starts to sound appealing is at a price point that is getting uncomfortable.

And... I feel like I'm a bad person/friend for saying it, but frankly... I might consider the experience worth the stress of paying half of such a trip, but footing more than that, even with promise of repayment, is something I don't think I'm comfortable with. I don't really like being owed by friends, and even in the short term I don't want to see my bank accounts take that much of a hit. I haven't yet replenished my savings account from my computer purchase this year, like I should, and this would pretty much trash any hope of doing so.

Pretty much every trained instinct within me is screaming "It's too much, just let it go." But doing that feels... I don't know... like failure. Like letting others down. Like letting myself down. Like losing the best excuse to take some vacation time that I've heard in a while.

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  1. northawkeAugust 20, 2013 at 11:45 PM

    But if the point is to visit distant friends, perhaps the best thing to do is to chose the flight option instead. It means more time at your destination, with people you see rarely. I know your potential road trip buddy, I think, and you can see that person much more easily. And, I would hope that said person, as your friend, could understand that you need to be looking out for your own mental and financial health, as well. I know it feels like being a stick in the mud - but sometimes being financially responsible is what you have to do - you have to take care of yourself. And the rest of us have to understand that. *hugs* for whatever you decide. But I would opine that it is *your* vacation, and you should have the right to enjoy whatever vacation will not cause undo stress. What good is a "vacation" if it means you're having to be cash strapped and worried for quite a while after?

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  2. marinredwolfAugust 21, 2013 at 7:57 AM

    Well, this would have been "our" vacation, and going solo doesn't really make it much more feasible. It's unfortunate, but I think I'm just calling it at this point and moving on. There are other things that could use my money and attention in the meantime. So it goes. Thanks for the support.

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