It's My Party, I'll...
... simmer with a low-burning rage all day if I want. Apparently.
I don't know whether to actually say I'm pissed, but I'm definitely grouchy after getting caught up in the perpetually-renewing conflict between certain friends. That led to me going to bed in a bad mood. Which led to me getting up in a bad mood. Which has led to me going through my day - you guessed it - in a bad mood.
He feels unsupported, undermined, and needled. They feel picked on and threatened. None of them seem to realize (or at least to be willing to admit) how they're aggrevating each other, and everyone's probably taking things too personally and lashing out in their own ways. I don't care "who started it." Hell, there is no who started it anymore, it's been going on for years.
Ultimately, I suppose it's just a clash of personalities - a situation where, for whatever reason, they simply can't/won't understand one another enough to get along in more than short spurts. I consider myself pretty good at doing that, and there are still people who rub me the wrong way without even trying, so... yeah.
When I saw things building up, I hoped - desperately - that in some magic way everyone involved might look at the calendar and respect me enough to put any such arguments off for 24 hours. To offer me some tiny measure of peace for the day. It was too much to hope for. I know that. Actually, I even knew that at the time, but I still hoped.
And I think that made it more personal. While it's not uncommon for me to get frustrated or angry with a situation, I very rarely allow myself to be upset with people. I usually blame myself, or circumstances in general. Today, though... yeah, I'm a little bit upset with some the oldest and dearest friends I spend time with on the internet. And it's made for a pretty miserable day.
It doesn't help that no one has actually wished me a happy birthday today. Sure, that wouldn't reverse my stewing bad mood, but it'd be... a little bit nice. Maybe?
I don't know whether to actually say I'm pissed, but I'm definitely grouchy after getting caught up in the perpetually-renewing conflict between certain friends. That led to me going to bed in a bad mood. Which led to me getting up in a bad mood. Which has led to me going through my day - you guessed it - in a bad mood.
He feels unsupported, undermined, and needled. They feel picked on and threatened. None of them seem to realize (or at least to be willing to admit) how they're aggrevating each other, and everyone's probably taking things too personally and lashing out in their own ways. I don't care "who started it." Hell, there is no who started it anymore, it's been going on for years.
Ultimately, I suppose it's just a clash of personalities - a situation where, for whatever reason, they simply can't/won't understand one another enough to get along in more than short spurts. I consider myself pretty good at doing that, and there are still people who rub me the wrong way without even trying, so... yeah.
When I saw things building up, I hoped - desperately - that in some magic way everyone involved might look at the calendar and respect me enough to put any such arguments off for 24 hours. To offer me some tiny measure of peace for the day. It was too much to hope for. I know that. Actually, I even knew that at the time, but I still hoped.
And I think that made it more personal. While it's not uncommon for me to get frustrated or angry with a situation, I very rarely allow myself to be upset with people. I usually blame myself, or circumstances in general. Today, though... yeah, I'm a little bit upset with some the oldest and dearest friends I spend time with on the internet. And it's made for a pretty miserable day.
It doesn't help that no one has actually wished me a happy birthday today. Sure, that wouldn't reverse my stewing bad mood, but it'd be... a little bit nice. Maybe?
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