A Personal Victory?

*sigh* *flump*

Emotions are tricky for me online. Sure, it's just text, but anyone who thinks emotion cannot be conveyed in this medium is fooling him/herself. All too frequently, I find bad moods passed to and from friends while MUCKing. Sometimes there's even cheering-up that happens.

What's that have to do with anything? Well, tonight, I found my mood spiraling down while playing. As frustrated and annoyed as I got, I actually think I managed to remain civil. I didn't see anyone pulled down with me, and I didn't hear anyone asking what was wrong. It appears my deliberate efforts to avoid snapping really did manage to hide how I felt. That's unusual, in that I often don't have that much self-control.

Is that a victory? It feels odd to say, but it is to me. Some of my friends are sympathetic enough that sharing my annoyances tends to drag them down into foul moods as well. To me, it's a success to avoid doing that, even if it means hiding how I feel. ... Is that wrong?

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  1. kyn_elwynnOctober 9, 2005 at 11:33 PM

    No. Yes. No, it's not wrong. There's times when you shouldn't have to share how you're feeling if you don't wish to share those feelings. Yes. Because then those who love you can't try to help you. Sorry I wasn't a help and if I got on your nerves.

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  2. alynnwellsOctober 10, 2005 at 1:10 PM

    *rubs your shoulders* Victory? If that's what you were trying to accomplish. I wish you'd chosen otherwise, but that's because I'm empathic and would have wanted to play the cheering up game. Or at least have let you vent. Heck, given my own rotten mood, maybe we could've had a bitching session. Then again, not everyone considers that a help. *wrygrin* I hope you're feeling better, and I hope I didn't add to it.

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  3. marinredwolfOctober 10, 2005 at 1:54 PM

    I don't think you added to the problem, though complaining about the magic system in the middle of the game last night came awful close. *hugs*

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  4. marinredwolfOctober 10, 2005 at 1:58 PM

    Well, therein lies part of the issue, I guess. In my online experience, it usually goes more like: Bad Mood + Bad Mood = Worse Mood. But yes, I'm feeling okay today thusfar. It's all good.

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