I don't know...

... anything, really. But let's ignore that little detail just now.

Work has mellowed out some the last couple weeks. That's a good thing. I can sometimes even make progress. Of course, have still have a list of lingering issues from the last phase of our upgrade that aren't being addressed as quickly as we'd like. That's in the hands of another company, though.

I've started playing DDR, putting in 30-60 minutes each evening. It's... kinda fun, really. I've seen almost daily improvement, though songs on Light mode still blow me away thusfar. It's not the greatest exercise, sure, but it does get me moving more than I would otherwise and I can feel it in my calves.

Probably connected to that, I've been eating a bit more and going to sleep a bit earlier than "usual." My mood is a bit better on average, yet my interest in being online has waned.

Of course, it doesn't help that all three MUCKs I keep an eye on are largely underpopulated. FurryFaire is under new management, providing a chance for recovery, but nothing has actually been done to pull it from limbo yet. FF:DA is either in a slump or a downward spiral. The TP involving the collapse of Figaro and the exodus of everyone may have been conceived as a way to spark interest, but it doesn't seem to be having that effect from what I can tell. I know *I* feel less inclined to be around during a minor apocalypse. And Fool's Moon... well, there were more people online last night than when I usually look, but I'm not even playing there at present. The character idea I have is floating and awaiting my decision on whether it is worthwhile to try getting involved there. Heh. If all three were crammed together and combined, we might have a single place where things actually happened.

I've no vacations on the horizon, but I'm looking forward to taking Friday off. Sure, I'll put in a few hours on Sunday working on things I can't do during normal hours, but it always feels like a treat to be able to take off what is normally a work day.

For all that, I have this feeling in the back of my awareness like I should be looking... ahead? deeper? at my life and my self. The impulse is there, but I'm not sure where I should be looking, exactly, or what I should be seeing. It's... confusing.

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  1. tashiroApril 1, 2004 at 1:25 AM

    I've felt some of my interest drain too, mostly because if anything is to happen anywhere, it seems I have to twist limbs. I'm pushing the staff on FFa to discuss the system, and hopefully we'll get some responses soon from that. As it is, I'm not hearing much. Not a good sign (though so far it seems they like the system, no realm complaints). As to FFDA, there was supposed to be RP in the last few days, gearing towards the shift in the campaign, but with half the people involved not showing up, that's pretty hard. I don't know what to do about this anymore. :

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  2. marinredwolfApril 1, 2004 at 1:46 AM

    Wish I knew what to say to help. Sadly, I have a habit of speaking my honest opinion when I comment on such things, and that never goes over well and usually seems to make things worse.

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  3. alynnwellsApril 1, 2004 at 11:29 AM

    Speaking just from my personal point of view, there's less and less reason for me to show up with this plot going on. Derynn has no reason to be in the city. He can't buy a meal and there's no one to busk for. He's not a noble, so he's not really involved in the moving-the-city plot. And when he tries to be involved, he's generally ignored. I think this plot may have backfired, chico. :/

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  4. alynnwellsApril 1, 2004 at 11:41 AM

    It's not really for me to say, but on a guess, I'd say listen to that feeling, chico. Even if you're not sure where you should be looking. Sometimes it just helps to have your eyes open. And confusion is par for the course. Didn't you know? ;)

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  5. kyn_elwynnApril 2, 2004 at 2:22 AM

    Every once in a while people get this introverted view on themselves, and wonder if what they do is 'worth it' I've observed this condition in my friends, loved ones and even myself. It's not anything negative, but sometimes you need a little change in routine, something to 'shake up' what you've been doing. Don't give up on friends, and they won't abandon you. Sorry to hear the places you playa re going plonk. I'm sure that's more frustrating to the GMs than the players. Aside: Why is it the gamers who want to game get punished by those that only half-way make good on their agreement to play? Anyway, I'm here for ya if/when you need support or an ear to blab into.

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