I need a vacation

Actually, I'm doing okay all things considered.

Taking a look at the home situation from Susan's point of view has helped me feel less uneasy about that. Sure, I still feel like I'm walking on egg shells at the house, but it's not as bad as it was.

I'm still quite tired and short on everything (especially patience). I very nearly just went and played Neverwinter Nights rather than logging on to Faire or FFDA last night. In retrospect, maybe I should have. I probably wouldn't have ended the night mired in unpleasant emotions that come from thinking too much about relationships there.

I really wish I could just push it all aside - work, house negotiations, emotional baggage from online RP - and go away for a while. I'm in need of time to sort myself out, and I can't do that with everything that's going on. But then, I can't afford either the time or money right now to do such a thing, so I guess that's out.

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